A Day in The Life:

asb president

justkumagai — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 05:15:05 +0000

i am Troy High School’s next asb president.
i don’t know
what or how to feel.
pressured, scared, and other things i feel right now.
i don’t know.
i really don’t know.
afraid of the future i am, i guess but gotta do work.
and i am really really scared.

ephesians 6:10

losing faith

justkumagai — Tue, 13 Apr 2010 23:40:15 +0000

in myself.
i seriously can do nothing right.
i swear.

award

justkumagai — Fri, 26 Mar 2010 04:39:27 +0000

i won some award today…
cool.
i updated my resume.
pretty legit if you asked me ! :]

Appealing…?

justkumagai — Thu, 25 Mar 2010 04:28:05 +0000

this weekend was pretty great.
i had amazing times at my retreat. so much fun.
this week has been working out better than i had hoped… [knock on wood it continues]
then tomorrow is last two regular games
friday i miss a ton of class for the sake setting up the obstacle course !
then 3 on 3 that evening THEN date with shannen probably.
oh i forgot open house tomorrow night where i will be receiving some award…
for which , i don’t know…
but it’s all goood. hahah.
i thing through Christ this week has been good, as all weeks are, but making it a little bit better for me !
so let my weeks of super duper business come and do their worst !
becuase through Him i can do all things.

selfish

justkumagai — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 05:26:38 +0000

not shellfish, but it is almost friday.
it’s never bad to be selfish every now and then, spreading yourself too thin is a bad thing.
hahahaha, that’s my speech that’s going to happen later this year.
it’s selfish to say my senior year is going to suck. [knock on wood]
but it probably is. i am going to have to work harder than any other
and even then, live with the ridicule which comes with it. and they say it’s
supposed to be an easy senior year, right !??! oh well, the path i have taken…
ASB president, is such a pedestal which i have aspired to reach and now that it
is mine for the taking, i almost don’t want it. I would imagine this is much like when
people get married, you know? they build up to the point where they think they know
what they want in their lives and when they get it in their cross-hairs, they doubt.

Well, i’m going to tie the knot. Live with the outcome and work as hard as i can to
make it as good as possible. It will be no easy feat by any means, and Lord give me strength for it,
but “go further go harder! if not, then why bother”

imagine;

justkumagai — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 05:00:18 +0000

these days i need to realize what i hold most dear and what is most important.
i am doing nothing well. by all means. i need to grab hold and just turn things the way i want it to.
everything i am doing seems to be fruitless, with no avail and well honestly, i am frustrated for lack
of a better word. i feel spineless, terrible, useless, stupid, unworthy, and down. but when one is challenged,
one must never back down. and if i am to take pride in any trait of me, i think i would like it to be that.
to never go down for the count, to never allow myself to give up. “for me, giving up’s way harder than trying.”
i just have to do positive work. [not the physics kind, but the mental and physical kind]
time for me to keep on taking one step at a time the right way. don’t complain, don’t feel sorry for oneself,
because it can always be worse.
have faith, work hard. that’s all that i can do, and man oh man, i am going to try.

to tie in the first part to the last part of that paragraph, the first part is that i am just i guess
trying to do too much again and it’s frustrating me. i as stated by my great math teacher, am failing.
i am in no part good at any of the things from which i was known and that sucks. i just have to
re-dedicate and re-focus myself to the objectives at hand, no matter how frustrating it might be.
so, if that makes sense… >.>

pray for those who need strength to get through these hard times, whoever it may be.

hatin’ ]:

justkumagai — Thu, 04 Mar 2010 03:51:31 +0000

so we were scrimmaging today at baskteball and i was playing pretty well, finishing super well
and every time i scored, i would look over at the coaches laughing at me… ._.x
i also realized that within our basketball program
every coach i have played for loves me, except the varsity coaches.
._________.x
i really doubt i’m going to be playing next year…

glee.

justkumagai — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 05:10:22 +0000

this weekend was an uber waste…
i have about two weeks of slow time.
then everything hits me like a ton of bricks.
i hate how people can be so… hateful… ]:
oh welllllll.
gotta rise above it.
pray for me in the coming weeks, because
i’m going to need strength to get through…

i hate people

justkumagai — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 04:29:57 +0000

in general.
people are just stupid, i guess.
this year has certainly been terrible, and it sucks.
i really have no other way to say how much this year has truly just been…
bad.
all my expectations for this year have officially been crushed.
there is only one string left that could save it. but the way things have been going
it looks like it’s going to happen.
great.
i’m honestly really sad about it, and well i just want this year to be over with, so i can go on ahead
and get through all these hard times.
i just gotta keep fighting, you know? back’s against the wall, keep going, keep moving, never give up.
it could be worse, so keep on fighting.

all things according to plan.

justkumagai — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 05:18:28 +0000

but definitely not. i have gotten none of what i tried to accomplish this year done.
all my expectations for this year have failed me.
everything from basketball, to rotc, to asb, to psst.
i mean wow. everything just has fallen through on me.
not playing, kicked off, [well no real complaints], losing skit.
i mean it’s just a lot to take in at once.
everything i used to do gone. i should quit while i’m ahead some would say,
but i gotta put my head down and persevere because otherwise i am just weak.